February 2010
January 2010
sometimes, i still need you.
things that i miss
being outside all of the time, the sun, being small, forgetting to be self conscious around people, good conversations without modesty, having money to have film developed every week, the woods, my house, the color green, when regina spektor made no sense, moneta, being able to drink without puking, writing more than a paragraph at a time, cynthia blaker, people before they became other people,...
and after all, don’t it feel like nothin?
I DONT CARE
if you listen to different music if you shop at thrift stores if you buy records if you read lots of books if you carry a camera around your neck if you have a different sexuality if you’re smart if you smoke if you drink if you like “indie films” if you’re different if you wear pretty dresses if you wear lots of plaid if you have tattoos if you have piercings if you love...
i don't mean to close the door but, for the...
i thought id felt your silhouette creeping up behind my eyes, somewhere in the frontal lobe and i realized i never slept where you slept. all it was was phantom voices in the morning, planting seeds that are now sprouting out uncontrollably in places i thought were sacred. the bloom into metaphysical dreams and die in the sun, leaving me. leaving me where i started.
and i’ve found your chin...
i need you more than you need you.
All I want in life is someone to explore with.
there is ice everywhere. i am stranded at philip’s house, unable to sleep, while he is stranded at cody’s house several miles away.
wanted: more dependable, authentic people.
“to look life in the face, and then, to put it away.”
“if you love me, really love me, let it happen, darling, i won’t care.”
Tim Burton's Alice In Wonderland Soundtrack
moonbrains:
1. “Alice (Underground)” performed by Avril Lavigne 2. “The Poison” performed by The All-American Rejects 3. “The Technicolor Phase” performed by Owl City 4. “Her Name Is Alice” performed by Shinedown 5. “Painting Flowers” performed by All Time Low 6. “Where’s My Angel” performed by Metro Station 7. “Strange” performed by Tokio Hotel and Kerli 8. “Follow Me Down” performed by 3OH!3...
what does it take to fall asleep without repercussion? to be held without role of promise and a rhythm of perpetual summer, inside where it is the lack of something, words mean nothing. there are places where words cannot go and that is where you find the hand, over the heart over the face when you are not there. under the covers when you are not there. but ill be, ill be ill be, when you are not....
i only ever want to listen to sad songs
why is it so difficult to be useful?
i cant get away with it anymore after tomorrow. i just want my apartment and my job and my freedom. six months, six months.
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ask me questions.
come and open up your folding chair next to meeee
well, at least i am free.
he believes in the love of his god of all things, but you find him wrapped up in all manner of sins, the drugs that deceive him and the girls that believe him. you cant control him you don’t know him well, these are the reasons i think that you’re ill.